I am an out and out, self-confessed, paper chaser. Ask me at 2 years old what I wanted to be when I grew up, chances are I would have replied rich. Yet, I sit at my desk day in day out while my friends travel the world making costumes on cruise ships or dancing in circuses and while I have a good job and I am happy, I still feel like I am missing out on something.
My job pays well, it’s not the highest paid profession in the world but I enjoy it. It’s never going to make me rich so Clint and I have our side hustles but I always wonder if I should give up the rat race and move to a little village somewhere hot and work in a local cafe while Clint does the odd handyman job. It’s a fleeting thought but one that comes along quite often.
It also doesn’t help that I’ve just got back from Rhodes in Greece where I was visiting a friend who is living out there for 7 months dancing in hotels. That’s not exotic dancing to be clear! She spends her days by the pool chilling before heading to work for a couple of hours in the evening and I can’t lie, I’m fairly envious.
It is hard work for her and money can sometimes be really tight but she is really happy and loving life. When I am stuck on a train for 1 hour and 20 minutes every day (providing there aren’t delays) with 50 mins of walking added to that just to get to work, it’s easy to see why the life she is living is so appealing.
Anyone that knows me knows that I like my luxuries and strive to be the best at everything I do but am I just putting too much pressure on myself? I look at my friends who just want to pursue their passion, regardless of the money or without worrying whether they will have a mortgage in the next 5 years and I wish I could have the same attitude.
I’m just wired to plan for the future and make sure that everything is in order, I have always believed that the more work I put in now, the better my life will be in the future but I think one of the biggest struggles in life is balancing short-term gain vs long-term happiness. I’m happy to accept that I think this way but sometimes I just need to chill the fuck out and remember that I am only 23 years old. At this age, life is all about making mistakes and taking chances, after all, it’s the chances you didn’t take you regret the most.
As someone who is a little bit older (only four years), I think it’s sensible to have the attitude you do, but as you say, you need to have fun, too! You’ll have the rest of your life to worry about bills and money and all the stress which comes along with it, so try not to let it take too much away from you right now. x
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Soo true. I just need to enjoy the moment x
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It feels as if I wrote this. People around me have, what seems to be amazing lives. One friend went to work in Thailand and Cambodia, and ended up in Berlin 2 years later; another one is having the time of her life every summer working on a beach resort. And I am here at a 9-5 job. A well paid one, but still. I sometimes feel like I am missing out on something. I used to feel way worse 2 years ago, though, I feel like I have come to terms with this. I realise that this ‘adventurous’ lifestyle is not my thing and I do actually enjoy going to the office.
However, I still have to constantly remind myself that I am not even 25 yet to be so obsessed with reaching the before-I-reach-30-goals that I have, and I, too, need to chill the fuck out. 🙂
Great post, loved reading it!
xx
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Nice to know that someone feels the same. I’m not the adventurous type either, I prefer my little luxuries and comforts too much. But it’s true that we need to chill out a bit and stop stressing so much over the future. What will be, will be! x
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I’ve been feeling this way for awhile now! It’s so hard not to think about money and your future, when it’s so important. I want to have a nice house, with everything i want, and not have to worry. But it’s so hard if you’re not just focused on money and that’s it. It’s hard to live your life to the fullest when all you can think about is the future. Everyone my age seems to have everything together and I just don’t.
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I don’t think anyone really has it together. To an outsider, I probably look like I really have it together but I haven’t got a clue what I am really doing in life haha!
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I am so the type to chase money too! As a student that is bloody hard work and sometimes I wish I just had a steady job but I am also so grateful for the opportunity to be young and dumb while I can! Loved this post it really made me think!
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Ahh life is just so difficult!
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Hey love, I nominated you for the Sunshine Blogger Award 🌈✨
https://dishyfox.wordpress.com/2018/06/17/sunshine-blogger-award/
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Ahhh amazing! Thank you. Will do mine later in the week.
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Please don’t forget to have fun! As once you hit 30 life flies by! do what makes you happy, as you want no regrets and if that means planning then you keep doing that hun! xxx
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