Sometimes I wish I was unambitious. I look at people who are content just plodding along and I wish I could be happy living like that. But, I’m wired to always be thinking of what’s next and never really feeling satisfied with what I have. It’s not a bad thing but it means that life becomes extremely hard to juggle.
Trying to blog, work a very demanding 9 – 5.30, while socialising, being a top girlfriend, trying to keep the house in order and fitting in the gym to burn off the 2 stone I’ve been trying to get rid of for the past 5 years is bloody hard work. I’m quite often left feeling like I’m not good enough because I haven’t seen my friends in ages because I’m blogging on the weekends or I feel bad for having fun and not having the time to blog.
I once saw a quote on a mug once that said, “We all have the same amount of hours as Beyonce” and for ages, it stuck with me and I used to beat myself up soooo bad for letting something slip. But, Do I have someone at my every beck and call who helps organise my life? Nope! And, do I have the money that Beyonce has? Most certainly not.
What I started to realise is yes, we all have the same amount of hours in the day and different people use them better than others but it doesn’t mean that I should feel bad for how I spend them. Whatsmore, it’s hard work trying to fit everything in but it’s doable at my own pace and it will pay off in the future.
By working smarter and not harder, I can see my friends, write blog posts, hold down a job and do anything I want. Even just getting out of bed 10 minutes earlier can make a huge difference. That’s not to say that I am going to run myself into the ground. We all deserve a day or two hiding from responsibility with nothing more to keep us company that Netflix and a KFC Boneless Banquet.
What I am trying to say is that it is so easy to think that you aren’t doing as much as you should and most of the time you probably could be doing more but comparing yourself to others is counterintuitive. You can do everything you want to do, whether that’s sitting in front of the telly, seeing mates and write 5 blog post in one day.
I’m never going to happy watching life pass me by in a dead end job or one with no prospects, I’m still always going to want to have my side hustles because with a little hard work you can do it all.